unforgettable

i have many kindly friends.. and they're very lovely..
but im always make them sad.

3 years ago i have my special teacher
but at last, i made she's very dissapointed about me

2 years ago, me and my best friend,
did a some fooled things.. *it's criminal.. haha
and im suddenly know that's
everything's is change now.

for some reason, im tried to doing my best,
but for somehow too, it's ever failed.
it's happen for every life's humanity
but, i hate it..

im very missed my junior high school life..
when im feel my life is very engrossed
but is too late,
im failed to make my happy ending.
u know what..
is no need for regrettable against.
and for the last chanced,
i cant see all my best friend
i remembered, they're keep tried
to invite me of our last meeting
and im ignored.
it's okay..
is better to they're goes without me.

and im ever feel
it's very sucks to know,
im late for one step for somethings.
and the other's can got what i wanted.
and im must let it go..
i'm always can get better than it.

im always strong compared other people.
but they're dont know,
im more hurt then they're feel..
though~
it's visible, in my eyes..
they're can see and feel my painful.
but they're never conscious..

im always make all people who
loved me is very hurt and anggry..
and they're go away..
it's my hobbies..
no, i dont think so..
i just need to recognize about my self..
please understand dear.
but if cannot, it's okay, well i know
im very annoyed to fickle
for some moment.. haha

but.. there's always one my best friend
who receive me, where ever my condition..
she's loved me.. and im preety sure
"she's the one.."
even thought i can't be a perfect for her.
im always told her, "forget me, im worst"
and she's said: "no, i cannot..you're best part of my life"
im realized.
whenever she's will forgeting me someday,
im happy too happy ever meet her,
thanks to my God..

for me..
my life is very worthy..
even though people said
im strange, weak, ugly,
evil, aroggant,
im never afraid..

it's my own life,
my journey and my destination.

for some people
who trusted me for all this time..
all of you're the best.
and i believed..
u will never ever be changed.
forgive me,
im not perfect.. but i love u

back to my boring school..
spent my time for a stressful..
wish me luck :)